Quiet time

I personally had to take some time out for a moment to my creativity and sanity. I had a lot of time to process and get things in order. Learning how to multitask and take care of myself personally.

It took a lot for me to not quit and give up. Sometimes we just need to take a step back on how life is going and breathe.

I had my moment and now it’s time to get back out there.

So many things have been happening and we need to express and keep the movement going. We cannot stay silent.

Podcasting will begin. Networking. Social media. I will get my voice out to be heard. I can’t keep silent about anything any longer. If I can speak I can be heard.

But for now. Info for my new podcast series WineItUp will be posted soon.

Stay happy, safe, and healthy!!

Until next time!!

Attack those Attacks

As we all know at this point if you’ve been here reading you know I deal with quite a bit of anxiety. Which I do not deny. I actually like being able to speak freely about it due to the fact that I know many other people in a similar situation don’t know how to express it in a positive way. I feel being positive will break the bad stigma that anxiety gets in the public eye.

To relax I try a few things. Usually if I can’t calm down by talking things through rationally I have to go to step 2. My step 2 is cleaning. When I clean I have control. Having control of a situation is a big part of what triggers my anxiety. They explain on quite a bit of things you can research that a big event or a buildup of smaller things, work stress, or financial issues can trigger anxiety. I deal with a few things, which I try to push off as nothing because I don’t like to make everything about myself. My issue is, when there is no control of a situation and it seems all crazy I start freaking out internally. Another is when I’ve gotten behind on something I have a deadline for, stressful due to me being a procrastinator.

Step 3 is art. I have always been decent with art. Painting and drawing pretty much. I have gotten into the photography portion of art, which is amazing as well. Art allows me to be creative and get whatever feeling out on paper or canvas. I know sometimes it can be a beautiful drawing or just a dark collection of mess. That has to come out so that I can continue with the task I was doing prior to my anxiety attack.

Final steps I chose is writing. The reason I started my blogging life. I need to be consistent with how my feelings affect my work and life.

There are quite a bit of options for reducing stress. Click the link to check them out.

https://blog.admiral.kendal.org/stress-relief-tips-for-seniors-and-everyone-else?gclid=Cj0KCQjwka_1BRCPARIsAMlUmErXEby3AuvJ1SrfdHZxqSM8M9WhDWc76lSayYVVMi5jwrIyt0Wn_R8aAqy3EALw_wcB

Tell me about how you work past your anxiety attacks.

Stay happy, safe, and healthy!!

Until Next Time!!

Work from home

Working from home has been a part of my life since roughly March 16, 2020. I have been enjoying it quite a bit. I always enjoy working alone and in my line of work I happen to work my own part of a few clients, who will remain unnamed for privacy reasons.

I actually have been having a great time here at the home. I have the freedom to go by my own flow. My job sometimes gets a bit hectic in the office. I work in a small office space with 4 other women. So you could bet the stress, irritation, moodiness, and lots of other things that you could possibly think of. I can’t say I hate it, but I sometimes feel like energy could be a lot more positive. I don’t like negativity at all. I feel when people have angry or tense vibes, which the office was definitely filled with.

Working from home has its perks. I get to wake up about 15 minutes before my clock in time if i please, shower, eat a nice breakfast when I’m up early enough. Even with the early time of 7am clock in I can still be calm and collected for work. No extra drive, rush, 7 alarms to make sure I’m actually awake with time to get to the office. I think you all can make out that I’m not exactly the best morning person. (Unless I have fun fun plans!) I usually have reports I do before 9am and then I start up on my clients and the accounts I have to do to keep up with. Which everything takes me quite a while to get done but we try our best to keep up with. I’ve actually been doing better than I thought. I got a promotion in January for this department to send claims and disputes to be reviewed for patients. I enjoy the job, sometimes it gets to an overwhelming point.

I think with being a first time person to work from home I feel I’m doing a decent job. Sometimes I feel I wander a lot. That’s a normal thing for me in general, with work and school and life. I sometimes take some time to gather myself from the work I’m doing to remember I’m a person and not a robot that I feel they assume I am. The worst part of the job is when its assumed I have only one thing to do rather than the 5-6 things I do all at once. Tis life though. I will prove it all to them that I am capable of all they throw at me

BUT, working from home isn’t bad at all. I enjoy it a lot. I enjoy the peace of mind and freedom to do what I have to do. I usually don’t have too much involvement in much meetings so I enjoy the freedom I have. I think I enjoy working from home too too much in my opinion. The work from home life has me definitely spoiled. I can make due with anything they give me so I know I will be okay. I just want a little more time at home. The peace is what I enjoy most.

Tell me about how you enjoy this home based living!!

Stay happy, safe, and healthy!!

Until next time!

Today’s full day of Depression.

Today I will be getting a little personal. I have been doing really well with being at home working in the situation the world is in right now. I usually have regular depression which I do handle quite well in my opinion. I am not prescribed any prescriptions to help due to me not exactly enjoying medications. I already take enough for my terrible migraines I get.

I know that I could have had a more worse day but depression is a different way of feeling. Sleep, work, and just being a person is hard. At least for me. I take a lot to stay on track and feel like normal. I do a lot of pretending and forcing myself to do the regular day by day things.

Depression: The persistent feeling of sadness or loss of interest that characterizes major depression can lead to a range of behavioral and physical symptoms.

My depression is definitely genetic. My mother has very very bad depression and has been medicated for it and some other family members as well. I have seen first hand how being medicated effects people and I just don’t think its for me personally. To any reader I apologize if that is rude or offensive because that is not what I intend to do.

I have a combination of depression and anxiety. I have personally learned that for me, my anxiety will lead to the depression stage that I am currently at. I had anxiety for about 3 days straight. My anxiety is a mix of paranoia, fear, sadness, and I have a lot of trouble breathing and controlling my emotions. I know its a lot but tis life.

This causes me to be super excited and ready for all things once and then after a while I will become super distant. Having both anxiety and depression causes me to be inconsistent on life in general. It is one of the hardest things now that I am currently a content creator. I have had better days which everyone does.

I always wish there was some kind of cure for this. Unfortunately there is nothing except medication to ease the feelings that we all get. I personally try to get as much correct and medical information as I can.

I know that sometimes with mental illness it has a stigma of shame and being hidden from the world. I come from a Hispanic family and it is sometimes different to express the mental hardships we are going through. As well with many other ethnicity’s and genders. I know from men it is harder due to the whole concept of ‘being a man’. Which I 10000% disagree with because that’s just not fair. Men are just as capable and emotional as a woman. It is important for everyone who needs any mental illnesses to get the proper help they would need. DON’T BE ASHAMED.

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Tell me about how you cope with any depression symptoms?

Stay happy, safe, and healthy!!

Until next time!

Our Habit.

Ok, so I know not everyone is a drinker. I personally am a social drinker or I have a glass of wine once in a while. Which honestly is nice. I could be involved in other recreational things but I’ll choose this. Lets keep it legal, right?

Now, I know lots of people who have been hit by this quarantine/lockdown have been hit mentally, emotionally, and financially. I have my deepest thoughts for them in this hard time. A lot of people have been going to drinking. Its mostly people who already drink heavily or drink to hide emotions. I personally drink socially or when stressed entirely too far. SO i haven’t started that pattern at this time. A lot of people I’ve spoken to or even seen on social media have come across day drinking. I feel its wonderful for a random day or an outing with someone you’ve been vacationing and you have nothing on your agenda.

Of course a lot of people are home with this way of living at this time. Which leads me to the topic of the time. Day Drinking!!

I am working from home and blessed. That leads me to think, should I take part in the day drinking? I’m not sure yet. I’m not a heavy drinker so I feel it doesn’t entice me as much as the next person. I have enjoyed a glass of wine earlier than usual but nothing crazy.

It is ok to have a drink a day as long as you aren’t at risk of heart failure or heart disease and many different factors.

Small bits of info on the benefits of day drinking!!

https://www.bustle.com/p/6-unexpected-ways-drinking-during-the-day-affects-your-body-differently-than-at-night-15925059

Tell me about how you enjoy your drinking.

Stay happy, safe, and healthy!!

Until next time!

Quarantine/Lock down

This is my 15th day under quarantine. This is going to be primarily my own opinion and I will be doing follow ups with more information and updates further. I know everyone has been worried about this, which is understandable, but I believe if everyone stays positive this may get better faster than we expect.

The first week was a little difficult in all reality. This is the first time I am working from home, which I am blessed to be able to do. Some people were not as fortunate as I am. Becoming acclimated to being home at all/most times is very different for me. I am a person who is always on the go. My schedule is busy busy. From working full time, school, family, and attempting to have a social life it definitely changes things.

Working from home definitely a new way of doing things. I handle two clients for my job, which is great. (By law I’m uncertain if I can disclose the name so I will figure that out on my own.) It has been a little difficult time managing, which is my own issue, but I’m getting the work done in my time given. After a bit I got used to the time home for work and I find it more productive that I actually enjoy listening to podcasts, music, and comedy specials. I have to make sure that I figure my work/home balance.

School is online 100% now. Unfortunately this is not exactly the best for being in media but we are making it through. Classes are consisting of meetings through Ring Central(not sponsored). They seem to be pretty decent. The instructors that have stayed with us have a pretty good grasp on the fact that we deserve our education even through all of this chaos. I’m grateful for the educators.

Social life is pretty non existent in general. With school, work, and family There does not leave much social time. Every once in a while I would enjoy a night out but not as much as the normal person in their 20s. My family is what I keep up with. This has been impacted. I cannot see my mother as much, nor my siblings and sisters kids. So, not seeing my family is difficult for me.

In all, this quarantine is a benefit and a disappointing. I am learning more about myself day by day. I learn difference in how to follow school and work. I also see how people react to drastic changes. I hope that everything changes for the better rather than worse. We will all see how this expands or contrasts in the next few days or weeks. Lets work together on making this less than more.

Stay healthy, happy, and loved.

OMS Night Out

Last night we joined the Sexy, Beautiful, and Charming Ms.Gwen on our OMS Night Out performing live. Doors were open at 6:30 starting us with a little sound check to make sure Gwen was prepared to bless our ears with her soulful sound.

We come into our green room filled with lights, chairs and some audience members. Gwen brought her wonderful mother and beautiful daughter with her as her support system. There was a colorful array of fruits and veggies for everyone to indulge in as we waited for the show to begin.

Gwen started the night off at 7pm with What You Won’t Do. That was a great way to set the mood of the night. Calm, relaxed, and serene. She kept the vibe going with her soulful renditions of Stand by Me, Summertime, Gravity, and ended the night with I Can See Clearly Now.

The entire set was a beautifully put together single woman performance. We were able to experience one of our cohorts/classmates do something that they worked extremely hard for.

Below is the set list of what was sung last night.

Part 1: What You won’t Do; Prototype; Dreams; Stay; Can’t Make You; Love Calls; Stand By Me

Part 2: Summertime; Nothing Compares; Gravity; Crazy; I Can See Clearly Now

This shows us what we are all made of. The future holds so much more for our students. Let’s see what’s next!

Spoken Word

Every once in a while I come across some great work with Spoken Word. Yes it is Poetry. I feel this is also a form of expression that is similar to music. Some Spoken word is put along to music, slow tempo, upbeat, depending on the style. Other times it is still. Quiet or loud words that send powerful messages.

I feel it is similar to music because in ways of how much music has the vibes and the settings to what is needing or wanting to be told. Spoken word is such a great way to express things that normally cannot be actually said. Spoken word allows people to become engaged, use critical thinking, and empowered through their own voices. Not many people know what that is like.

I prefer to hear spoken word that allow the listener to understand what the artist is feeling. Having something to compare to or feel connected to. I enjoy knowing someone other than myself may be going through the same thing or actually feels something.

At this day and age it seems like most of the time we have to censor what we say and how we say it. Sometimes when things are said in a raw way it makes humans actually human.

Just listening can show you a different light on what is happening in the world, big or small.

Stories

In music we all may (or may not know) that what we listen to is based off a story of some sort. Many genres of music do so, rap, R&B, Country and so on. I feel the story is what makes people relate to what the song is trying to express. In a way that when people actually can relate is how some songs actually become top charting songs, other than the instruments and the beats under the vocals. Today’s music definitely has an effect on people. The genres are put together in a way that by using lyrics that people are able to connect to that pulls at certain emotions. The artist/producer may be focused on a certain way they would like the listener to feel with that song.

Certain songs have stories. For instance, how about Country music? Yeah I know some people aren’t too fond if thats not your groove. Which is perfectly fine. Country music definitely has a way to draw in the listener with certain words and stories.

Lee Brice’s I Drive Your Truck. This is one that can definitely pull at some heartstrings and make you feel all kinds of emotions. This is a song that brings people to think about their families near and far, also having to deal with your grief in any way. In the song the way grief was dealt with was driving the truck that would bring back memories.

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How about top music maybe on the radio on a regular? Even if its a top charted song, it will mostly have a story. Kendrick Lamar’s Swimming Pools is one that tells a story that a lot of people relate to. Peer pressure and using substances is a focus in the song but it is expressed in a way people are able see how things that sometimes are hidden and put in a closeted form get brought out to light.

15 Songs That Tell Better Stories Than Your Favorite Novel

With this it may have you listening to songs differently, and that’s great. Just knowing more about songs and even the smallest things matter within the smallest sections of words in the songs that tell any story.

How music affects..

Music. 

An artform most people have a large connection to. 

I personally believe music can get you through the roughest of times to the easiest most beautiful times in your life.

By creating or listening to certain music can affect your mood, day, and life. 

A certain song or tune can get you through something only once and be a memory. That same song or tune can stuck with you in all forms of what you need to get through your entire life. 

Listening to music does affect your brain in positive and negative ways. There are chemicals in your brain that allow you to feel happiness and satisfaction, or sadness and grief. Those chemicals can allow the music you listen to be engraved in your mind in certain ways.

Dopamine is the chemical in your brain that allows you to, in simpler terms, feel good.

When I choose my music I usually go with what I feel and the mood for my day. In the entire day it may be calm, happy, or just relaxed. I enjoy just making sure my mind is in a good place in general just so that each day is met in a great way. Personally when music affects me in a positive way I feel that my day will start and end great.

In all things, there are good and bad. Being able to allow something as powerful as music to assist you with how your day is/will go is a very important thing in my world.

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